i met you.

I've been dreading this entry because as I'm writing it I'm still in my grieving process (may 2024). Ironically enough I had written our story down as it unfolded, so it should be easy to lay it out here. And if you are reading this (you know who you are), know that this is my experience of our relationship and I hope you find joy in the simple truth: it happened as it was meant to.

do you believe in love after COVID?

Now fully vaccinated and ready to start my new life. I decided it was time to start socializing a little bit. I had a taste of what a gay club looked like and I also had a very chaotic first experience with recreational party favors. I was fully acclimated and ready to take over Denver. Or so I thought.

it’s a new life and I’m not feeling good

I never thought it would take me this long to tell my story, especially since the whole purpose of this is getting to 2024, but patience is a virtue (ironically enough I don't have any). Going back to where we left off in 2021.It took a whole month to get my passports and ID sorted in order to travel to Colorado for my cousin's wedding. I was ready for a very well-deserved vacation after the shit show that was the 2010s for me. Getting all my documents, in order, and packing was a nightmare. But a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.

love in the times of corona

As you might have guessed by now, I'm a lover, I love love. I'm also a very social person, so when covid hit, one thing I missed the most in the middle of lockdown was my decently busy social life. Yes, we had Zoom meetings for work and even Zoom birthday parties where I'd get drunk in my room with my friends, but that's not the same. However, in between the madness of what had become the new normal, I managed to find someone special.

the year the Earth stood still

I still remember when I'd hear the news about the virus in China and think "that sucks, oh well..." and then I'd move on with my day. Then the first case appeared in America, then Latin America, and eventually the first case was confirmed in Peru and everyone started to freak out. One day, in the middle of work we got sent home as a way of precaution since there had been a lot of new cases of covid. Little did we know it was going to be 3 months until any of us came back to work.

04.29.19

Nothing can ever prepare you for a loss as big as a close friend, especially in your mid-20s. I first met JJ at the start of my senior year in high school, after my friend Alex mentioned their cousin, who went to another school, told them there was a new kid in her class who was also gay, out, and very American. We joked about them introducing us so we could be gay together and get married, which ended up happening. Not the marriage though, obviously.

one hundred years of solitude part 3

Have you ever heard "What goes up must come down"? I don't think I've ever felt a fall more violent than when I struggled with money at the same time I was struggling with my mental health. As much as I'm embarrassed of the life I was living back then, I can say if it hadn't been for the struggles, I wouldn't be where I am right now. Grateful and wise beyond my years (words used by my therapist) There were a lot of things I needed back then, but a job was the first thing I needed.